Mike Blair Music

Are we gluttons for punishment?  Do a few of us in our day to day lives think how much drama we can cause by not allowing ourselves any enjoyment?  I’m sure you can cut it down the middle.  What side I would be on; I’m not sure.  Having come under an umbrella of people’s concern here recently I honestly say I’ve reevaluated my lifestyle.  I write more, think more, and workout more.  I have two short living goals to reach by December.  I have chosen to be sad and disappointed about things because I loved with my whole heart.  I have chosen to set aside pursuing gigs for a while.  Long before the relational crap hit the fan, I knew to put the guitar down.  I had to do it.  If you would like to hear religious terminology say I’m crucifying it with hope that something more accurate to where I am will come.  This has come off as acting out, coping or “throwing it all away.”  Maybe it is.  I could be way off base, but I’m throwing it to God.